Hard shit

What in God's name am I doing?
I waste so much time pondering future actions, and past events.
I know exactly how I feel and exactly what I should do.
I also know exactly what a pointless thing it would be to do that.
Besides, things would end up worse than they are.

Life is hard.
It's harder when you have something to say.
It's harder when you can say it, but won't
It's harder when you would, but know it wouldn't matter.
What's the hardest?
Knowing theres nothing you could do to make it better.